bored.

someone [rather myself] told me: "an eye for an eye, so give me yours."

hahahahhaa....so lame....

done...

finally done with final exam...
got back my result, 2A 2B
but have been doing nothing but slacking...
i am so happy...
the school don't even allowed me to enter colvin...
thats a GPA of 3.50
cant even work out anymore...

so tired.

but i still do work out at home...

trying to lose about 20 pounds for this summer...

but i guess no hope...

sad sad sad

:[

on the bright side....

i am going to New York at the end of summer, so happy. my dream is coming true. so thats why i need to lose weight so i can so to New York Happily. if can get me a modeling contract. i really want that. i will the happiest kid in the world.

cultural night.

Cultural Night 2008 just ended moment ago.

This two-night extravanganza is a competition for our international Area clubs to display their respective cultures and spotlight the tremendous diversity found right here in Stillwater, Oklahoma. The awards are divided into 2 groups: the big groups and the small groups. This year, our theme is "Unity in Diversity."

my groups is in the small groups catergory, and guess what....."WE WON"
muahahaha...we won best performance for small group.
we are all delighted and relieved.
because we put in a lot of hard work and time into this performance.

our performance is called: "Tari Piring" which basically means 'The Saucer Dance'

Day 2

Spring break - Day 1

today is the first day after Spring Break.

gosh i miss spring break.

this is how is spend my spring break.

Day 1 Oklahoma City

state capitol and downtown.

droppy eyes.

im very tired right now.
its 2 40 am.
still not asleep, trying to stay awake so i can called everyone up for our trip to Dallas tomorrow.
excited yet sleepy.
i wish time can run a bit faster.
just cant wait anymore.

a few more days till opening of school.
crap, i hate school,
especially when you have to pass up all your homework after holidays.
which of course i havent done any till now.

starting school, and it follow by the cultural night.
we finish training, but still need to perfect it.
we all still suck in the formation and the beat.
hope it can turn out good on the day.

[tick,tock,tick,tock]
watching the time goes by.
and nothing to do.

help.

i need help. seriously
i am having trouble maintaining my weight.
i getting fatter and fatter as the days goes by.
i really need help.

i need someone to kick my butt, asking me to go to the gym.
i am really lazy this past few weeks.

i wont be having school tomorrow,
which is like a good thing and a bad thing.

The good thing is that i get to get up late,
and wont have to study at all.

but,
if i just stay all day at home,
with all the food around me,
i dont think i can resist the temptation.

[help]

dance practice...

i just got back from my dance practice.
it was tiring, alot of tempo to catch and remember.
but the most difficult thing is that we have to hold on to a plate while doing the dance.
our hand and feet has to be in the same pace.
if not the plate will fall and break,
and we would all be dancing on our butt.
still in the process of remebering all the movement.
praying hard.

count down to cultural night
[3 weeks]

xoxo

wooo....

Spring break coming soon....in 2 weeks.
cant wait for it to come.
have no idea where to go.
and still have to practice for cultural night.
we are going to perform a "plate" dance, and an act.
i hope i sucks at acting, i rather do a dance.

i am having American Govt. exam tomorrow.
and a math exam the day after.
i am going to do bad at Govt.
i am really scared, but nah....

back to studying.
:]

life.

i am exhausted. very exhausted.
i dont know what is going on with me.
life has no meaning for me right now.
i hate to deal with stuff that really burden me. making me tired, making me depress.
why some people are able to live a happy life, a life without any frustration, without drama.
i cant stand people being happy.
completely jealous and wish i have the courage to open up, the way i did last time.

stress out.[completely]

kanz.

New Year.

finally 2008 has arrived. it has been a hectic year, but delightful.

but still i have yet to fulfill my dream.

a new year, a new resolution.

i wish i am be able to have the courage to do the things i have been dreadful to do and maybe hope that the new year is going to be a great one. i wish all the best to my family and friend.
have a shot at the thing that i want to do.

there is still so much to do, and still a lot of stuff to work on. really
take care. :]

kanzxoxox