hey man! what's up.

Birthday.....

2009-10-04T21:11:00.000-07:00

I turned 20 last week....
should be feeling happy.....

but...

My best friend of 6 years didnt even wish me anything,

and I was stupid enough to believe they are going to.....

so I waited and waited, but never heard from any of them...

was I being naive or did I expected too much from them?

xoxo,
kanz

funny day i had.

2009-09-27T20:53:00.000-07:00

how should i start......

Last night, I had a slumber party at Soo Tot hse, fun but cant sleep, dont know why, feel weird I guess staying at other ppl hse....so on and on.....blah blah blah.....

so arnd 0130 pm I went back to Soo tot hse to accompany him while his housemate went on a date to OKC,

Soo tot the crybaby who need someone to accompany him at hm, he is afraid of being lonely I guess ahahahahhahaha....

I went there for lunch, we ate roti prata (or roti canai) which we both cook, well I cook 1 big piece and he cook the rest LOL...smart me of course.....

So while we were happily eating our lunch, and going on to do our stuff, finally came the horryfing phone call....it was Ben.

hehehe....so i didnt really care that much, just did the usual thing, laughing and doing silly stuff while chatting with rendra, but until he came, suddenly the whole atmosphere just become awkward, very very awkward....

I have no idea, but I feel like I am about to die in there, and I dont even dare to speak, as if like my dad was there....so the conversation between me and soo tot could only be made on MSN...funny thing actually, we are the GOSSIP BOYS.

not that I have anything against him, but come on why does have to be so thick skin.

came in uninvited, asking for free dinner....haizzzz......

(Part of the conversation we had)

:] k. : i feel weird
xIaNg : hahah
xIaNg : i know
xIaNg : i can see
xIaNg : u so quiet
xIaNg : haha
xIaNg : not urself
:] k. : ya
xIaNg : nvm le
xIaNg : jus be urself
xIaNg : suddenly only he call n come
xIaNg : .....
xIaNg : if front of my house only call tim
xIaNg : later how to get rid of him
:] k. : lol why ask me
:] k. : this is your hse!
xIaNg : deng
xIaNg : help me think
xIaNg : hahaha
:] k. : ask him to "GET OUT"
xIaNg : sien sien
xIaNg : babiiii
:] k. : se xi la
xIaNg : sek si la him
xIaNg : dengg
:] k. : lol
xIaNg : no lee
xIaNg : see u so sien n not urself i feel bad ma
:] k. : ahahha lol i dont mind its okay
xIaNg : =0
xIaNg : SURE ONOT
:] k. : obviously
xIaNg : hahahhaa
xIaNg : sorry wei..
xIaNg : jus now should ask him not to come
:] k. : lol no la
:] k. : i also guest cant be like that
xIaNg : hahaha
xIaNg : diff ma
xIaNg : me n u best fren maaa
xIaNg : him? *gulp*
xIaNg : hahaa
:] k. : ahahahaha
xIaNg : it is the truth ok
:] k. : ahahahaha

so that was part of the conversation, too much to put it in 1 entry, but mostly talking bad abt him =p...

I just have to get out off there early, luckly I did, if not i might just rot to death....

:]

xoxo,
kanz

bored.

2008-05-19T01:03:00.000-07:00

someone [rather myself] told me: "an eye for an eye, so give me yours."

hahahahhaa....so lame....

done...

2008-05-09T11:38:00.000-07:00

finally done with final exam...
got back my result, 2A 2B
but have been doing nothing but slacking...
i am so happy...
the school don't even allowed me to enter colvin...
thats a GPA of 3.50
cant even work out anymore...

so tired.

but i still do work out at home...

trying to lose about 20 pounds for this summer...

but i guess no hope...

sad sad sad

:[

on the bright side....

i am going to New York at the end of summer, so happy. my dream is coming true. so thats why i need to lose weight so i can so to New York Happily. if can get me a modeling contract. i really want that. i will the happiest kid in the world.

cultural night.

2008-03-29T20:53:00.000-07:00

Cultural Night 2008 just ended moment ago.

This two-night extravanganza is a competition for our international Area clubs to display their respective cultures and spotlight the tremendous diversity found right here in Stillwater, Oklahoma. The awards are divided into 2 groups: the big groups and the small groups. This year, our theme is "Unity in Diversity."

my groups is in the small groups catergory, and guess what....."WE WON"
muahahaha...we won best performance for small group.
we are all delighted and relieved.
because we put in a lot of hard work and time into this performance.

our performance is called: "Tari Piring" which basically means 'The Saucer Dance'

Day 2

2008-03-24T23:01:00.000-07:00

Spring break - Day 1

2008-03-24T22:28:00.000-07:00

today is the first day after Spring Break.

gosh i miss spring break.

this is how is spend my spring break.

Day 1 Oklahoma City

state capitol and downtown.

droppy eyes.

2008-03-19T00:39:00.000-07:00

im very tired right now.
its 2 40 am.
still not asleep, trying to stay awake so i can called everyone up for our trip to Dallas tomorrow.
excited yet sleepy.
i wish time can run a bit faster.
just cant wait anymore.

a few more days till opening of school.
crap, i hate school,
especially when you have to pass up all your homework after holidays.
which of course i havent done any till now.

starting school, and it follow by the cultural night.
we finish training, but still need to perfect it.
we all still suck in the formation and the beat.
hope it can turn out good on the day.

[tick,tock,tick,tock]
watching the time goes by.
and nothing to do.

help.

2008-03-06T23:51:00.000-08:00

i need help. seriously
i am having trouble maintaining my weight.
i getting fatter and fatter as the days goes by.
i really need help.

i need someone to kick my butt, asking me to go to the gym.
i am really lazy this past few weeks.

i wont be having school tomorrow,
which is like a good thing and a bad thing.

The good thing is that i get to get up late,
and wont have to study at all.

but,
if i just stay all day at home,
with all the food around me,
i dont think i can resist the temptation.

[help]

dance practice...

2008-03-05T19:22:00.000-08:00

i just got back from my dance practice.
it was tiring, alot of tempo to catch and remember.
but the most difficult thing is that we have to hold on to a plate while doing the dance.
our hand and feet has to be in the same pace.
if not the plate will fall and break,
and we would all be dancing on our butt.
still in the process of remebering all the movement.
praying hard.

count down to cultural night
[3 weeks]

xoxo

wooo....

2008-03-03T21:20:00.000-08:00

Spring break coming soon....in 2 weeks.
cant wait for it to come.
have no idea where to go.
and still have to practice for cultural night.
we are going to perform a "plate" dance, and an act.
i hope i sucks at acting, i rather do a dance.

i am having American Govt. exam tomorrow.
and a math exam the day after.
i am going to do bad at Govt.
i am really scared, but nah....

back to studying.
:]

life.

2008-01-24T22:00:00.000-08:00

i am exhausted. very exhausted.
i dont know what is going on with me.
life has no meaning for me right now.
i hate to deal with stuff that really burden me. making me tired, making me depress.
why some people are able to live a happy life, a life without any frustration, without drama.
i cant stand people being happy.
completely jealous and wish i have the courage to open up, the way i did last time.

stress out.[completely]

kanz.

New Year.

2008-01-01T09:02:00.000-08:00

finally 2008 has arrived. it has been a hectic year, but delightful.

but still i have yet to fulfill my dream.

a new year, a new resolution.

i wish i am be able to have the courage to do the things i have been dreadful to do and maybe hope that the new year is going to be a great one. i wish all the best to my family and friend.
have a shot at the thing that i want to do.

there is still so much to do, and still a lot of stuff to work on. really
take care. :]

kanzxoxox

Icy.

2007-12-10T07:35:00.000-08:00

Today was the most dreadful day in my whole entire life!

the road was all covered with ice, and i fall flat on my ass. so embarrassing.

but luckily i got home safely nothing much happen after that fall, cos i was careful.

it took me almost 30 mins to get home rather than the usual 15 mins.

gosh, i hate it today...but luckily i got through my Biology exam...it was great, i have confident that i could get very high mark

:]

xoxo
kanz

pissed.

2007-11-02T23:05:00.000-07:00

i am so f-ing pissed off today.

ice raining.

2007-10-21T21:44:00.000-07:00

today i experience the most amazing thing. it is raining ice. muahahaha.

Laugh my ass off.

2007-10-16T23:21:00.000-07:00

baru dengar joke dari Tommy A.

Ada 3 vampire, satu dari US, satu dari UK dan satu lagi dari Indonesia. Satu hari, 3 vampire ini lagi mau cari makanan (darah). Abis ini, vampire dari US ketemu satu desa dan bilang:" kalianlihat, aku akan habiskan semua orang di desa ini," abis itu dia balik dengan darah di seluru mukanyah. Vampire dari UK ketemu kota dan bilang:" kalian bedua lihat aku menghabiskan semua orang di kota ini," dan dia balik pulang dengan muka penuh darah. vampire ketiga, Indonesia, engak bilang apa2 langsung lari, tapi langsung pulang dengan mulut pernuh darah dan mengatakan:" kamu lihat tiang itu, aku tidak kelihatan."

hahahah LOL, kena tiang abis itu idung mimisan.

selanjutnyah,

3 vampire ini pergi ke bar, vampire dari US berkata:"saya mau darah wanita dari perancis(france) yangh segar," abis itu waiter nyah ambil segelas darah segar. vampire dari UK bilang:" saya , mau darah wanita dari america yang segar," abis ini waiter nyah ambil segelas darah wanita america. abis ini datang vampire dari Indonesia,

dia bilang ke waiter:"tolong ambilkan segelar air panas."

waiter nyah bingung dan berkata:" air panas?"

vampire bilang:" iyah, air panas."

waiter nyah mengaruk kepala dan memberican vampire itu segelas air panas. vampire itu mengambil kotex dari saku nyah dan celupin di gelas air panas.

hahahah, lucu deh.....gak tahan.

confused.

2007-10-13T23:09:00.000-07:00

Just came back from a game of beach volleyball, the usual group. it was really fun playing volleyball, but very tiring and dirty, because of all the sand. it went into my short....hehehehe.....so itchy.

today me, ani, tin2, risma, indra, viking farell, and roni went to J-night. its the coolest thing i have ever seen. anyone who didnt watch the show really mising one really great show. hahaha. but unfortunetly, this will be their last year performing at J-night. so sad. but i am lucky to catch their last performance. lucky mua.

after that we went to mbak ika's (IOSA president) house to tusuk* sate, which is one of indonesian delicacy, it is chicken stick. we were preparing for Halal Bi-Halal. dun ask me abt that, i have no idea wad it is too. hahaha. we kind of prepare abt 200+ sticks. cool.

after a tired time sticking chicken on the stick, we went to play a game of beach volleyball. tiring as always.

have been feeling down lately, i know why, i just wont admit it. cos i dun wan to think abt it, make me even more depress.

help me. really. i want to get out of this misery. i had enough of it.

[Leave.Me.Alone]

*sticking

P.S snickers is my fav thing now. sore throat is also my fav past times now. keep having them after i have eaten a piece of chocolate.

furious.

2007-09-16T08:36:00.000-07:00

i dunno what is it with some people who just cant keep their mouth shut when talking abt other people. if you want to say that kind of stuff abt people just stay it behind or just dun tok abt it, and not keep on talking abt it and expect people to tink that is a joke.

leaving.

2007-05-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

I am going back tommorow, which is 12 of may. half of me is missing this place already, but the other me kind of saying i will be back soon so there is no need to be sad about.

I will be going back to Jakarta to do my student visa, learn how to drive, get my own license and also study for the upcoming school work.

It has been confirm that i am going to be studying at NOC (Northern Oklahoma College). I am taking a gateway program, which also means i could study at OSU after finish my 24hr credit. You see, my 'O' level score was not up to their expectation when i gave them my result, so i only have two choice. One is to take an exam, if i pass i will go to OSU straight away. but sadly i didnt pass the test so i only left with my 2nd choice, which is the gateway program.

sad but also happy that i get to study here.

The course i will be taking is interior design, which has always been my dream. The subject i am taking at NOC are Basic Composition, Appreciation Of Art, Finacial Accounting, American History Late and Plane Trigonometry. Well i got to work hard already, because some of the subject are foreign to me, kind of like an alien. ahahaha.

now is 1:57 a.m.

stop writing.

wait till aug 12.

basketball.

2007-05-08T21:49:00.000-07:00

Today me and my sis went to play basketball, well it is not a very fun time for me as the floor was all wet due to the tornado that going to come soon, i think, so there is a lot of raining this few day, so the floor was all muddy and wet.

but something happen that make me laugh my ass off while playing basketball. my sis accidently slip on the muddy water and fall. hahahahaha. she had her whole butt full of wet muddy water, but luckily she doesnt have any injury. although it was bad to laugh when someone fall, but i was having a bad day, and i need something to make me laugh. i got it, so lucky me.

haahahhaaaaahaahahahaha.

spiderman.

2007-05-04T13:33:00.000-07:00

today was quite a hilarious day for me, as we all know that this few weeks in spiderman 3 fever and all the people we going crazy ordering ticket wanting to watch it. i saw a crazy fan of spiderman. this is how the story go of me seeing him.

It start with a boring day for me in the morning, with the usual routine of putting my sleeping bag into the room, brushing my teeth, eat my box of cereal.
Then in the afternoon, i was on the bus on the way to sch to see my bro. The bus stop, waiting for the red light to turn into green, suddenly as i turned my head to my right sight, i caught a glimpse of spiderman fan. A student from my brother school wearing a full spiderman outfit to school, well without the mask i think he wants people to recognise him. can u believe it? i really laugh out my gut. it was so funny. well i hope i got the same courage as him, being able to put out other people comment on how he look. but he look rather dashing wearing that.
hahahahahaaaahahaa.
l o l

new.

2007-05-01T15:04:00.000-07:00

yesterday is the first time i learn how to drive, although i still havent learnt anything yet, but i still do it. so my brother drive to the road behind our apartment and let me drive, as i move the gear to motion mode, my heart was pumping hard, i was afraid that i might bang the car to the lamp post, crash the car into the apartment nearby and blow up. but that doesnt happen, we arrive at home safely without a scratch anywhere. hahahaha. but still have problem turning at the corner. so proud of myself.

cool.

2007-03-13T20:21:00.000-07:00

Just a few days ago i went to see a movie with my bro and cousins. we went to see '300'. i was an interesting movie, cool pictures and graphic. the funny thing was tat all the man in this movie all wear underwear, which is so weird, and the nudity part which to me is very, very disturbing, but overall it was very nice.

my fav scene in this movie was the part when King Leonidas and 300 Spartans fought the persian army, the battle was crucial, exciting and gruesome. but i dont really like the last part where King Leonidas die. he shouldnt have die, he should be killing the king of persian and live happily ever after wif his wife and son. but well, its still a good movie after all.

i also had been studying for my SAT test. the univ here wont except me cos my Olevel result was not up to their expectetion. then they ask me to take an SAT test to see if i can get the requierment. SAT test consist of english and math. english is divided into two category, one is reading , the other one is writing. ahhhhhhhh.....hope i can pass, really want to study here...

boring.

2007-03-08T08:06:00.000-08:00

This past few week was really boring for me. i still can't believe i had been in US for a whole 1 week. i hope can still stay on till may when i go back to indo.

I had been eating, sleeping and watching a lot of english movie for the past 1 week. feeling like a pig right now. although i had been watching a lot of english movies, but my english havent improve at all, still have the 'lah' in it. Since i been here,i also tink i had gain a few pound. I tink because of the weather here, cold weather make ppl wan to eat more. haiz. need to go exercise again. havent even cut down on the weight i gain the last time.

last week, we had sushi for lunch, and we made it by ourself. although it doesnt looked good but at least it edible and it taste great.

i will be watching a movie play by sandra bullock this coming 16 march which called 'Premonition'.

this is a short description of how the movie is like. cant wait to watch it

[Linda Hanson (sandra bullock) has a beautiful house, a loving husband and two adorable daughters. Her life is perfect, until the day she receives the devastating news that her husband Jim has died in a car accident. When she wakes up the next morning to find him alive and well, she assumes it was all a dream, but is shaken by how vivid it felt. She soon realizes it wasn't a dream, and her world is turned upside down as the surreal circumstances lead her to discover that her perfect life may not have been all that it appeared. Desperate to save her family, Linda begins a furious race against time and fate to try and preserve everything that she and Jim have built together.]

lonely me.

2007-03-03T06:17:00.000-08:00

Today is my fourth day here in Oklahoma, kind of getting used to it here. nice place, nice weather, and i also find out that people here are all very friendly. for example, when you take a bus, the bus driver would how your days was? how are you today?...stuff that you will want to hear every morning to get your day started.

Well i am getting use to it now, but maybe when the days goes by i will find it very lonely and boring here, as all my friend are all at Singapore, and the only communication that available is through msn or maybe by the phone so inconvenient. sometimes when i am online, my friend are either sleeping or at school studying. so we dont have time to chat. and also because of different in time here. when it is day in OK, it is night in Sing. ahhhhhhh~

a brief of sad moment has just past and good thing are coming my way. we just have to wait for it to come and be happy about, you might not know what surprise is coming your way here. muahahahaha.

life in new enviroment.

2007-03-02T08:03:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i went to go shopping at the near by shopping centre. it is not like the normal shopping centre i saw at Singapore, it is wide but short. the tallest shopping centre is only abt 2 or 3 floors high.

we went by bus. it was the public bus use by people here. it has different colour, so different colour bus go to different place.

i live in a 2-room apartment which belong to my brother and cousin. it is quite near my favourite superarket. WAL MART. so it is quite convenient for me to buy food, so i wont starve to death.

first.

2007-03-01T03:12:00.000-08:00

this my first blog.

Well i decided to create a blog. It was so weird when i decided to create a blog, because i am not the kind who like to write stuff, im kind of lazy. but i tink tat i would be good to look at it when you get older, to refersh your memory of what happen in the past.

Today is also the day i reach Oklahoma. Finally reach here...the trip here was the most scary trip i have ever take in my whole life. It was more like a rollercoster ride, an intense 1....my heart was nearly fly right through my heart and crumple into tiny pieces. hahahaha. what a good exanple. It was the flight from Hong kong to Los Angeles, it was a 12 hours flight. At first it was quite smooth ride, we were all so happy that the plane had left the airport, but then suddenly when it was crossing the Pacific Ocean, the plane suddenly was like out of control, it just kind of like being shake by something. The strong current of the wind was like a hand and the plane was like the bottle of apple juice, and all the passengers were the juice. We were shake until bubbles were form. So funny. but luckily for us, nothing happens and we are all save. I took me around one day to reach Oklahoma, it was like i was living in aeroplane.

i also have nothing more to say, havent enjoy my life here. but it is very cold in here and the wind was just like hurricane which is about to come a whip out the place. And everytime can hear the whistiling of the wind, eeieieieeiie, make my hair stand, so spooky.