Birthday.....

I turned 20 last week....
should be feeling happy.....

but...

My best friend of 6 years didnt even wish me anything,

and I was stupid enough to believe they are going to.....

so I waited and waited, but never heard from any of them...

was I being naive or did I expected too much from them?

xoxo,
kanz

funny day i had.

how should i start......

Last night, I had a slumber party at Soo Tot hse, fun but cant sleep, dont know why, feel weird I guess staying at other ppl hse....so on and on.....blah blah blah.....

so arnd 0130 pm I went back to Soo tot hse to accompany him while his housemate went on a date to OKC,

Soo tot the crybaby who need someone to accompany him at hm, he is afraid of being lonely I guess ahahahahhahaha....

I went there for lunch, we ate roti prata (or roti canai) which we both cook, well I cook 1 big piece and he cook the rest LOL...smart me of course.....

So while we were happily eating our lunch, and going on to do our stuff, finally came the horryfing phone call....it was Ben.

hehehe....so i didnt really care that much, just did the usual thing, laughing and doing silly stuff while chatting with rendra, but until he came, suddenly the whole atmosphere just become awkward, very very awkward....

I have no idea, but I feel like I am about to die in there, and I dont even dare to speak, as if like my dad was there....so the conversation between me and soo tot could only be made on MSN...funny thing actually, we are the GOSSIP BOYS.

not that I have anything against him, but come on why does have to be so thick skin.

came in uninvited, asking for free dinner....haizzzz......

(Part of the conversation we had)

:] k. : i feel weird
xIaNg : hahah
xIaNg : i know
xIaNg : i can see
xIaNg : u so quiet
xIaNg : haha
xIaNg : not urself
:] k. : ya
xIaNg : nvm le
xIaNg : jus be urself
xIaNg : suddenly only he call n come
xIaNg : .....
xIaNg : if front of my house only call tim
xIaNg : later how to get rid of him
:] k. : lol why ask me
:] k. : this is your hse!
xIaNg : deng
xIaNg : help me think
xIaNg : hahaha
:] k. : ask him to "GET OUT"
xIaNg : sien sien
xIaNg : babiiii
:] k. : se xi la
xIaNg : sek si la him
xIaNg : dengg
:] k. : lol
xIaNg : no lee
xIaNg : see u so sien n not urself i feel bad ma
:] k. : ahahha lol i dont mind its okay
xIaNg : =0
xIaNg : SURE ONOT
:] k. : obviously
xIaNg : hahahhaa
xIaNg : sorry wei..
xIaNg : jus now should ask him not to come
:] k. : lol no la
:] k. : i also guest cant be like that
xIaNg : hahaha
xIaNg : diff ma
xIaNg : me n u best fren maaa
xIaNg : him? *gulp*
xIaNg : hahaa
:] k. : ahahahaha
xIaNg : it is the truth ok
:] k. : ahahahaha

so that was part of the conversation, too much to put it in 1 entry, but mostly talking bad abt him =p...

I just have to get out off there early, luckly I did, if not i might just rot to death....

:]

xoxo,
kanz

bored.

someone [rather myself] told me: "an eye for an eye, so give me yours."

hahahahhaa....so lame....

done...

finally done with final exam...
got back my result, 2A 2B
but have been doing nothing but slacking...
i am so happy...
the school don't even allowed me to enter colvin...
thats a GPA of 3.50
cant even work out anymore...

so tired.

but i still do work out at home...

trying to lose about 20 pounds for this summer...

but i guess no hope...

sad sad sad

:[

on the bright side....

i am going to New York at the end of summer, so happy. my dream is coming true. so thats why i need to lose weight so i can so to New York Happily. if can get me a modeling contract. i really want that. i will the happiest kid in the world.